Welcome to the year 2023 and the month of May. We have battled so much in our lives in our mid-thirties although the one thing that keeps haunting me and the majority of most of us are the snakes in our own gardens that just well seem to endanger all the living things that try to thrive unless they're cut off and given no way back into the garden. Of course all names have been left out for the privacy of the story but lord have mercy once the stalking crew gets ahold of how bad they've been painted although some things become public knowledge during certain things well they'll blame the victim for painting them to be the bad guy. So, with further ado lets get down to the nit and grit of immature and ignorance!
It has been going for over a year now roughly around the time I first caught covid-19 back in 2022 and the start to my new relationship. Let's say that has well, it's been interesting to say the least we won't go into detail on that because my mama raised me better. But the relationships that I can go into detail about well let's just say stupid is not a bliss for this person or groups of people. I mean for some of us that is a way to live but lord it ain't a way to live for me cause FUCK THAT, I want a purpose in life. I want meaning and depth. I want to say that I lived and I wasn't a victim to stupid choices. Although I am human and made my fair share of mistakes throughout my life I am by no means perfect but I am not FAKE! I've never met a group of people more fake then these. Honestly, I guess it goes without saying it's the crowed you hang with and while I choose to hang with those who well despise drama, secrets and backstabbing, unloyalty in people I will forever protect my children from the same. They don't need to be around those who speak ill of you when you aren't around because it's the thing to do. It's beyond childish and if you're my age you just don't have time for it nor want it in your life.
So what would you do if someone you got close to became friends with the enemy in your life and by that I mean best friends and cut you off because they the enemy had access to money and enjoyed doing stupid shit? Wouldn't you remove them from not just your life but your children's life because you know what happens when they're together because you are not stupid even if they try to play it off as they aren't like that and wouldn't bash you around your children but you've seen them when you hung out. Funny thing was they disliked this person from the start and are now always together to the point they have more excuses to why they can't help you. Again you'd protect yourself and your children, at whatever costs that means. Even if it means they don't get to see your children again in person. Seeing on social media that is one thing but I'm sorry they will never know whom they are because I have respect for myself and who my children will be around. Going through hard times bullshit, I don't give two rats asses what your going through to become an ice cold bitch and backstab someone who went above and beyond that's fucked up if you asked me, huge slap in the face like thanks for the money and food but fuck you I can get that all now from this person because they have it while you don't, then make your life hell and try to ruin your life and your personal life because it's seems fun and fitting because your life is shit. Sorry will not happen, I refuse to let jackasses like that ruin my life, danger my children you wanna fuck around fuck around find out what happens when you fuck around, I don't have to fight dirty I fight fair and legally. Hence the college degree in Criminal Justice, hence the desire to get a job that allows me to do what I want do. I have lost a lot of friends over the last two years because of this group of jackasses, I have lost normalcy because of these jackasses, they find this amusing and funny and that makes them childish and immature, and yes while I write about this I am paint the truth and facts while yes I am not perfect but at least I own up to my own mistakes, want to do better and not stay where I am at because shit is handed to me. Funny thing is I pay my bills, I have what I need so do my children, I pay for my services used, what I don't do is use people for my advantage nor do I pawn my children off on people to do what I want do, I am not like that never have been. Sorry if I don't fit the part, but for fuck-shake you want these children because you want to paint a perfect picture that you're amazing when in reality you choose to be the lesser of the latter. Crying shame if you ask me. I started working before I was in high school, I continued to work throughout my life. I have an autistic son who takes up the majority of my time between school and him and his younger baby brother I tend to stay home, raise my children, do my school work and help my other children in school succeed and make time and trips to Massachusetts to see my other children and my family. Funny thing when I left the nest I actually left the nest and stopped relying on my parents for everything I got the job, the vehicle and busted my ass because I needed to.
Of course now that I branded them the bad guys, lazy, immature, childish and selfish and latched to whatever they can get I'm going to get the backlash but I'm sorry I speak it as I see it and I have no problem calling people out on shit. I do it all the time, I will tell people this because hey I ain't the only mother trucker that has witnessed and seen the changes. Sorry not sorry for being so brutally honest. Yes I am on state assistance at the moment but I'm trying to get off it because I want a place of my own for myself and my children, I want a job that can comfortably take care of myself and my children, yes I have a partner but no I don't want his help nor want him to say if it wasn't for me you wouldn't have this or be where you are, see I built myself up from nothing in 2016 and then again in 2017 and then again in 2021 these "MEN" I'll use it loosely think that it was them, no it was me that did things for me and the children because I was able to work, able to provide, I didn't have excuses or childish wants and needs. I shockingly have been speaking with a few people about some amazing up coming changes! Sorry not spilling those details because ya know I'm sure my stalkers have this blog on lockdown! LMFAO because they need the latest TEA to talk about. I am truly sorry that your life is such a bore you must try to poke at another persons life to get your pleasure. See the funny thing is I have so much more I could write about and say about this group of people but because I have not all day nor the time to do that I'll end it here with maybe next time you shouldn't backstab the person that went above and beyond to help when they had nothing so you could have something. Because that was a true friend not just a friend to get you by until it runs dry. Well today's rant is good enjoy... I'll be back FRIDAY!
